Stuff I miss as a kid :(

So... I just got out of school. And since it's month of May, this is the month where all the half yearly tests come out. I actually feel like I'm slipping backwards rather than moving forward and improving. I got a 93% for my geo topic test which was a bit easy cause I did study for it. :) but some of my friends just have one mark higher than me and my ranking goes down. Agggggh. I guess I'm quite oblivious about how competitive and committed people are about tests and essays. I also had English last period today. More like an essay lecture, because we were given an essay task. When my teacher gave criticism about essay structures, I felt so bad because she said everything that was in my essay. I felt so badddd. I'm probably too much of a sentimental person. My teacher actually had to give our class a lesson on essay structure which seems quite boring which is probably why I have a blog that no one reads. I probably need to read a dictionary. It also made me wonder what type of blog I have. The way I blog is a resemblance of the way I am. I don't know if I should change my style of writing, or stop being so "hateful" in my posts. I don't know if I should appear professional. I gotta think about what blogs to post up. I need to think about how personal my posts are. I just want to be me. :) I guess the reason why my blog is informal, with a bit of a chatty style, is because I want to keep it entertained even thought no one reads it. I like to re red things in the past, because it shows how I felt like in the past. Does that make sense ? I've realized that if you go through hard things in life, in the end things seem easier. Eg. Working your whole ass off for a test and you get good marks. As a kid everything seemed so easy. Parents take care of of you. Don't have to study for tests from every subject. And I always thought that growing up into a teen/adult would be fun because you can go out with your friends and play with phones at school. Yea, you can do that, but then there's biased bitches, people who only like you for your looks and so much diversity. Life is too hard. Well, that just life. If it's not hard then it's not life. I love being crazy as a old and watching disney movies over and over again. I was a bit of a rebellious kid. Life is an interestingg experience.